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欅坂の過呼吸に想うこと

 

 

 

息ができない息が吸えないって、生きていくのに必要なものから離脱される感覚になる。

 

苦しくて、でも意識は消えなくてうずくまる頭の上で人の声が聞こえてくる。

 

心配されて、話しかけられてるけど答えられないから身振り手振りで伝えたいけど脱力してしまうからそれもできないんだ

 

いっそ記憶が無くなればいいのに、気絶出来れば楽なのにそうはならなくて。

 

救急隊員の声と野次馬の声、が頭にものすごく響いて、呼吸の荒さと喉奥を締め付けられる感覚、胸をもぎとりたい痛さで自分が何なのかわからなくなるのがくるしい

 

それを俯瞰して見てる自分もいるの。

 

こんなんになって恥ずかしい

人はみんな驚いてる、引いてる人もいる

心から心配してくれてる人もいる

私の大事な人が私以上に傷ついてる

でも消えたいごめんね

 

頭の中はずっとこれが廻る

 

 

 

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見慣れないものに拒絶するのは仕方ないことだ自然な反応

 

でもあなたが知ってる世界はほんのわずかだ

 

知らない事を知ろうとして欲しい

 

足を踏み入れたらきっとあなたと同じただの弱い人間だから

 

 

 

 

 

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 F**kin' Perfect / P!nk 

 

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you are less than, less than fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me
You're so mean when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you are less than, less than fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me
The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try
But we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don{t like my jeans; they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that
Why do I do that?
Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me, yeah
You're perfect, you're perfect
Oh pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothin' you're fuckin' perfect to me